>> Friday, May 20, 2011
The storms of life have hit me again. It wasn't totally unexpected but I was trying not to live with that fear. So here I am, trying not to feel defeated... abandoned...lost... lonely...lied to. Easter Sunday, our choir sang this song and it came to me again when I sat down just now: Praise the Lord, by the Imperials, one of my favorites when I was a teenager.
I can fight God or I can praise Him. I'm not sure I'm quite ready to praise just yet but the little bits of the wall are coming down. Here are the lyrics. They resonate in my spirit right now and maybe they will in yours, too.
I'll be ready for the fight again, sometime...maybe, but right now, I hope others will pray for me. I'm tired of the fight. Too tired... Maybe God's telling me to just praise Him right now. Maybe? Here's a start: Thank You, God for...ummm... well, just Thank You, God.
Okay...now I have some praises: Friends who are praying and telling me:) and after I posted this blog in faith and obedience, my FB suddenly started working. That's just wild. It hasn't been letting me post comments on statuses or write PM messages. If that isn't a God-thing, I don't know what is.
Thank You God for these things. And thank You for my laptop and internet that connects me to my praying friends. And Thank You for my husband who has a birthday today. Chinks are falling down little by little but the problem is still there. Majorly still there. and I want to cry. am crying but I will praise the Lord through the tears.